I broke down last night. I'm sorry i did. I'm sorry you had to come see me. I'm sorry i'm just not as good anymore. BUT NEVERTHELESS i'm going to fucking live life to the fullest regardless of what bugs me. Everyone has problems, i'm not the only one. So lets go give life a shot, who knows how it's going to turn out. Maybe if i have money i dont need love. Meh, i need to learn from max black on how to live my life, i mean, i should just see the worst in everything, that way, life becomes so much better, because there's nothing you havent been expecting. Alcohol, gambling and getting high is max's best friend, life is suppose to be like that, not giving a fuck. I do what i like and what i want, dropping out of uni or not, joining the military or not, moving on or not, doesnt fucking matter. Do what i feel like and thats the duty of care i owe to myself.