I know it may not be the best solution, but this is my only cure. Shopping, shopping and shopping. Spend most of my time shopping for myself, im continuously trying to improve myself, make myself better, show that i am doing much better without you. That this is what you're missing out on. I numb myself with the satisfaction i gain. I dont hurt as much anymore, but i cant listen to love songs, or see cute couples in pictures or just think about ever getting intimate with someone, i cant. And as i thought i was getting better, i spoke to an old friend, he asked 'hows you and shahid been?"... LOL idk what to say, it hurts, but its already reality, its been a month and you havent thought about me for once. Why am i torturing myself like this? i dont know. I guess i can't regret anything because at that very moment, it was the only thing that i wanted to do most. I guess i'll see you around. 12 more days til your birthday. Have a good one, party hard and live life to the fullest.