Date.

With Shahid i remember planning where to go almost every time we went out, although ive never asked him on a date, it felt as though i did, i organise everything and all he has to do is turn up. It gets tiring ya know? Always putting so much effort into what to do and where to go, yes there is gender equality but hey, girls like to be spoilt every now and then. But nevermind because i'm going to my very first date this Saturday. Is it normal to feel this nervous? I mean, there hasnt been much that i havent experienced from a relationship but a date? I've never been asked on one, what do i do? what do i bring? what shouldnt i do? So many questions, i guess i'd have to go find the answer out myself. Feels strange that im not planning it and it kinda feels awesome not knowing where we are going, that sense of mystery really draws me in.