It had been said that if you cant go a day without thinking about someone, then dont let them go, but on the contrary, they say if it doesnt make you happy, then dont it. What do i do if i cant a go a day without thinking about him but all it does is just hurting myself more and more each day. I thought we've already left it behind, that we've already left her behind. But it doesnt work like that, her presence still exists through you. You keep saying you're extremely stressed everyday because of work, school and her. So i've only recently discovered you are still not fine with it and because of this, it comes back to haunt me. The fact that you said you wouldnt know what you would do if she wanted you back and that theres a likely chance you'd leave with her. I had a dream last night, we bumped into her on the streets, you chased after her, i was left standing alone in an unfamiliar place. I woke up with pain in my heart, physcial pain that is, it hurt so bad mentally, i felt it physically. I cant even tell you because you keep telling me im over reacting and that im being dramatic. So with my bad start to the day, i watched sad romance movies. Always wanted to watch P.S.i love you, but never got the time or chance to until today. At the beginning of the movie and i was already pouring because i thought that was exactly like us. Then i asked you whether you've seen it, you said you didnt want to talk about it. I already knew why but i wanted to hear it from you anyway. You said it was the movie she told you to watch, and that she told you to watch it because the beginning was exactly like you and her. I'm not quite sure what im suppose to feel. In this relationship i think im the only one whose being cast under the love spell. I'm the one who's reliving your past, i'm the one who's filling in your wholes while it digs holes in myself. I'm her replacement. I know im screwed because i became attached. Not sure whether i should hurt myself now or risk hurting even more and losing everything later on. 50 first dates was my favourite movie, now it's 500 days of summer, says a lot about my faith in love aye?