I remember this happening with shahid. There was so much trust and faith in placed in you guys and our love that i thought you'd never leave. What happened to our promises, our vows, our dreams? I keep asking myself whether i should keep fighting, but i remembered the last time i tried fighting for shahid, i embarrassed myself and got hurt even more. I dont know how to get it through my thick skull when you tell me its over. I dont want to believe it, i cant. I will never understand the human brain, how do you have so much memory with someone and then just pretend like they never existed, you dont forget family, why do you forget me. Im fucking sick and tired of stalking your facebook and trying to see what youve been up to, only to see you making a lot of new friends, a lot of good looking female friends and i feel utterly crushed. ffs. I dont know what i fucking want and i dont know what i can do to stop thinking about you. I fucking hate this i hate all of this i hate you i hate them i hate her i fucking hate it okay. WHY THE FUCK DID YOU GIVE ME SUCH A BLUNT AND GENERAL RESPONSE TO WHY YOU BROKE IT OFF. You leave me here fucking thinking everything is my fault. Why does it keep happening, what am i doing wrong. Why do i love you so fucking much, why are you leaving me, i know im the best looking person, i know i dont have the nicest heart, i know im not the easiest person to deal with but i need you, i need you to stay no matter how hard it gets, i need you more than anything. I dont want to keep putting myself out there and getting no response for you, ive been trying so hard to not message you for the past week. I just want to see your face once last time this sunday. I wont bother you, i wont be in your life, i will move on, but know if you ever need me, ill be here.