First time hearing this... sooo likeee, someone said me and sunny look like twins :S HAHAHAHAH awkward, no we dont. I love talking to her, fuuull understands me and all :) Oh god, volleyball training was EPIC, im starting to like volley more than basketball, is that normal :O Shut up Xavier, we know you like NANCY now, dont deny it ;) And Cheers errrrbady.

Repost, originally written on : THURSDAY, JANUARY 26, 2012

Im getting so sick and tired of feeling affected by you. Im so sick and tired of trying so hard to seek love like ours. I tried and tried, but there is no spark with any one of them. I cant explain the feeling that i have, im not upset, im not angry, im not happy, it's like i lost all hope. Its annoying, i cant even motivate myself for anything anymore. My world is dull. Even though we've moved on, it gets so hard to walk away. I dont know why i still think of you, i hate myself for doing so.

Paula Deanda - Walk Away

They say the hardest feeling is watching the person you love, love someone else. That is true, but that's not all. I say it hurts rather more when you see the person you love not being able to find 'the one', and perhaps just playing around with everyone else. I pity him. That is only because within him, i see a reflection of myself. Neither both of us can get serious or remain in a long term relationship. This is like a big joke that god is playing on me. I've been running in circles, only to realise that i've came back to beginning for the x number of times. Sunny asked me if i ever thought that we could have a second chance. Truth is i couldnt even fool myself into saying yes, it is a fact that 'us' will never happen again. But us, humans are made with hope, that is what keeps us going, a glimpse of hope is already enough, enough for me to stay tough to stay beside you and assist/guide you to your pursuit of happiness.

Circles - Marques Houston

Farrrr fuuullll depressed that im going to write some Love sonnets bro HAHAHA jks. Aint Elizabeth Browning. Hmmm im still caught between the dilemma of re-attending basketball training and get fit, or just stay the way i am. Well, my coach do give me some discouraging words during the time that i was gone. Dude, i know you have a lot of respect from your students and players, but thing is you may know me, but you dont know my story. Things i go through, things i do, nothing, not one bit,you dont know anything. I dont even want to bother explaining to you sir. You annoy me. You along with mr pham, making things up that isnt even close to reality. Me ? Changed ? Hanging with Boys on the day that i had tutor ? Of course, what i say wont matter. Me saying a thousand words to explain myself wouldnt even help the situation because it isnt even worth one sentence that mr pham says. Well. No. I'm not challenging my coach, i'm just saying, dont be hypocritical. Dont tell us what to do if you arent able to show us what was suppose to be done. Dont tell me that i have been using anna to notify you things and that why cant i tell you myself when you couldnt even be bothered to answer to one of my emails and requesting anna for a reason why i want to return to training.

Stronger - Kelly Clarkson

This refers to all aspects of my life at the moment : What doesnt kill you make you stronger.

Your face, your smile, your eyes.

Never Love Again - Taio Cruz

Finally uncapped after a gazillion years. First thing i did was watch Hello Baby Season 5, with MBLAQ. Jizz right there, they are tooooo adorable, and Leo singing to my favourite song "This is war", dayumm. Here's a little appreciation for James' dramas to get me going :L Thank you. Oh god. The more romance drama i watch, the more i come to realise how sad my love life is HAHAHA, valentines day was just like 5 days ago. Sadly, no roses from guys, one from Cindee, one from Jenny and only one from anonymous. Dude, it's kinda fucked how im drawn right back to someone that probably sees me as nothing much more than just a school mate. That feeling, when you know there are memories, so close yet so far, that sucks. Well suck it up princess :) and ummm, guys... MBLAQ FIGHTING !