Let It Burn - Usher

Distancing myself from you, so I can learn how to live my life without you. Let everything slowly fade, including the love we once felt.

I dont even want to sort things out anymore, i want to slowly drift from you, so then when we part, i wont hurt as much. Hopefully i wont feel anything. I dont think we're worth fighting for anymore, i dont want to talk to you, i dont want to see you, i want to drag myself away from you. You have a whole life ahead of you, work hard on it, its your time to shine, its hsc. I'm sorry for taking up your time, but i dont want to be your last priority any more. I dont want to be the person you talk to at the end of the day when youre done with everything else, the person that you only have time for when you make sure you have nothing else to do. I'm done with you, us. I know, i know youre doing all that you can, and youre doing it for the good of us. But if i had to chose, i'd pick time over money, i'd rather have all the time in the world with you than you having all the money in the world to spend of me. Money cant replace times that we could have shared, memories we could have made, and love we could have maintain. We could have, would have, but we didnt. I just wished you'd understand i only want to spend more time with you.

After the party, i dont know what i feel anymore. Guilt was one of main ones that occupied my night and the next day. Whats even worse is when i come to think of it, i dont recall any moments of us, its like i did go to all those places and done all those things, but i dont remember with who, its like you are wiped out of my memory as time progresses. What is happening to me, im here with you but i dont feel you. Its like we dont have enough love, connection, time, nothing seems right at the moment. I feel as lonely as i was before. I feel like as though i have nothing, but even that, i'm afraid to lose it. Im afraid to lose my nothing and everything.

I'm so sorry for everything i've ever done that make you angry or sad. But i can't always be the person you want me to be, i can get emotional, bipolar and all, and i feel bad all the time afterwards. I always suck it up and say sorry, and the more i do this, the more i feel that since i'd do anything to keep you, you wouldnt value my existence, nor would you be worried about losing me. I seem desperate and cheap when i keep begging you to stay and not leave me. I know you know i'd do anything to keep you. I almost lost you a couple nights ago, i wont ever let that happen again, i'll take this as my second chance and make sure i'd do everything and anything i can to make it right. I know i can have high expectations but you've done all that youve could and i am fine with it now. You are the best other half in the world, every little thing you've done for me is now imprinted deeply in my memory. Thankyou for all the effort you put in for me. I love you.