since i have shown you two my blog, i feel that you guys wont have the interest in coming back for a second visit. thus i feel more comfortable to put this back on public. i dont know if you have noticed, but i fail so seek security from love. I dont believe in love. I have most definitely lost my trust with it. The insecurity i feel overwhelms me sometimes and the fact that you are one of those guys that a lot of girls like just simply glosses over the fact that i dont feel like i can trust you yet, i've built walls around myself and it tends to scare me that you'll probably give up on breaking through them. Not only that, i feel insecure to those that you have so called " were interested in " or " dated " in the past, every single one of them are pretty and im just sitting here, listening to you talk about how hot they are. I dont know about you, but to me i kind of feel like that was a self esteem attack, you made me feel as though im nothing compared to them, one thing you shouldnt do is talk about other girls that you were interested in to me, but its another thing to talk about how hot they are cos that just brings it to a whole new level. i dont know if im annoyed or just simply fucking sad that im sorry i cant be that great, if you dont accept who i am then just give up on me, i dont want to fall deep enough so that when we part i will be tearing myself up all over again. got it ? adios bitches.