if people would even have the slightest clue of what i have experienced, they wouldnt be laughing at the whole situation. I feel trapped and lost all at the same time i have no idea what to do. It feels like the only way out is to restart the game which obviously means ill have to end it now. Who said sadness isnt real? Who said sadness isnt a type of pain. It is so real i feel every bit of it gliding across my skin at where the blade meets the surface. I feel every bit of pain as i cry and cry to the point where i feel like i am suffocating and it is not the tears that are suffocating me, it is the thought of the lost of a loved one, I can't breathe, the more the think the less air there is. I feel every bit of pain when my heart is aching at the thought of all the memories that have been shared, it is crushing itself all alongside crushing my emotions, i can feel my body giving up, i can physically feel the darkness filling up my body, it is not blood that my heart is pumping, it is death that awaits.