Im not a strong believer of long lasting love, but sometimes this really gets to me. Seeing couples that use to be, what i thought was meant to be and how they were the best couple in the world, and after several months of dating, they break up, one month later they're dating this other person from their social group. Wtf do you think this is ? A season of Gossip Girl ? It irritates me when i see pictures of the old couples, their memories, their love, their laughter and fights and they get over all those months in just a week or so? I feel as though i've been looking like an idiot when i believed i had loved someone over a year after my break up, and grasp onto my memories for so long. How the hell does one get over a 9 year relationship in 2 months and start dating someone and seem so in love, it really makes me lose hope and motivation to believe in love. This moment we may seem so in love, as though we can see each other in our future lives but this is only going to be a moment that one of us or maybe both of us may never look back into as we part to our separate ways. Nothing really lasts, this is no motherfucking game, youre in or youre out. Why was i not born in the 20s, 30s or 40s, love is something you search hard and deep for, once in a life type of thing, then there's this generation where we re-enact the many episodes of gossip girl, relationships do not draw a clear line, there are no boundaries and guidelines in which one are to follow, its pretty fucked up to me. I don't want to fall in love, i don't want to get hurt, i don't want to be the only one holding on when we part, i don't want to go through that hell again.