Paul's father passed away, i dont even know what to say to him anymore. Holy shit. I don't know what im suppose to feel. I'm just speechless and i feel so bad. I'm so fucking annoyed at my mum for not letting me go to his dad's funeral, telling me we have to prep a lot of it and we need to have this ritual when i return home to ensure no spirits follow me home and that funerals are bad for me. STFU. I.WANT.TO.GO.