I don't know how much longer i can take this. For those that may know me personally would know i am an impulsive person, someone who cant take shit, someone who wont let you go on and on about bullshit about me, someone who would punch you in the face if you piss me off that badly and someone who always have to have a say in something. I've been violently bashed up for the past 3 nights. What can i say, i swear on my life this is the first time, FIRST time in my life that i chose not to talk back, i chose to withdraw myself, i chose to put down my dignity and pride and apologise for something i completely disagree with. Threats, disgusting insults and disturbing words were thrown at me, at one point i'd rather she plunge a knife right into me and just end it all. I've lost it several times tonight, i couldnt control myself, i clutched onto my hair and then grasp a tight fist, i broke the wall. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry i can't be the child you want me to be, i'm sorry i can't be perfect, i'm sorry i've caused so much for, i'm sorry i didnt show that i cared, i'm sorry for keeping it within my heart, that i loved you, i loved you i loved you i loved you. But from today on wards you are no longer in my life, you will not be in my future, you will not play a part in my life. Soon, very soon, the first 20 years of my life will be filled with blank memories in the spaces where you use to be. I'm leaving you. For the worst or for the better, it's a matter of perspective. The bruises and scars you leave on me can't even be compared to the tormenting trauma you have left me with.