Delayed Post : His Birthday.

So for his birthday, i decided to help him organise it, well technically i did almost everything, getting the food and getting the food to the place and organising who's helping and all. Shopping was the worst, making a shopping list, calculating the estimate and then go according to it when i dont even know exactly how many people will be attending. I could have sworn i've never been this organised in my entire life, i've never done this for anyone, the amount of effort i put into it for him.... He said he had a great day, im really happy to hear that. But on the other hand, i thought from the amount of effort i put in, the result would be very satisfying, mate i am so wrong. I had a really shitty day. First of, the night before, he said he just wants to spend time with me and we could be chilling and just talk. I spent most of my day being alone, everyone had someone except me, practically meeting everyone for the first time.

So i've been having this problem with him talking to a lot of girls on a daily basis. Him and this friend janeane has been real close friends for like a month, and i guess i've been all cool with it up until today. She made cupcakes for this birthday and he was so happy about it, he ate it immediately, said it "was the best cupcake he has ever had" and have been guarding it all day. Every now and then he'd be like "its janeanes cupcakes", like for example, by the end of the day we had a lot of leftovers so we were sorting out who is holding what bag, without hesitation he pointed to one bag and said "its janeanes cupcakes! ill hold that." I mean if the situation was reversed, he'd feel the same way because he's been jealous on several occasions.

I spent the night before shopping for this bbq, sorting out the money, spent almost two hours preparing the salad, only having to throw away more than 70% of it, he didnt even bother trying it properly. It pains me to see him value someone else's effort more than mine when in actual fact without me, he wouldnt be having this party. You're fucking welcome. Did i forget to mention, it was $140, and only 5 people chipped in around $5-$8? So i also paid for the party. Awesome.

And then having to deal with you talking about your ex not coming "she gave me a shit excuse to not come, what a dog." Why do you care? why does it matter that much? Why does it affect you still? Im sick and tired of hearing about her. I, for one know exactly how she's feeling and i know she still likes you. But you know what, you probably still do as well, i mean thats why her name in your phone is still "hubba hubba". Whereas your current girlfriend's name is just "Linda."

I promise myself to never ever trust you after this situation until you redeem yourself. You want trust, you gotta earn it. And from everything you've been saying to me, your actions have been contradicting.