Just an option.

I've always known your ex is not over you, even though she was the one who ended it. You never believed me. When we started seeing, you think she'd just coincidentally pop up and say she wants to be friends again? She wants the attention back from you, you were always submissive to her, she thought she'd always have you there, she isnt use to and doesnt want to see you move on. She knows how sad you were over her and its exactly from that, she thought she had gained the power to control you whenever she wants to. She says she's happy for you that you're meeting someone new, but trust me, trust a girls instincts, when i say she doesnt mean it, thats the only thing she can say so she doesnt sound like she's giving in. She wants to act strong and act like she is okay with it. She's not.

I dont know how to handle the fact that you guys still talk often on facebook inbox, and that you guys spoke on the phone last night. You told me she cried because she couldnt handle and deal with the fact you're moving on and that it is making her sad. You said she made you pick between continue to be her friend or be with me. So you're telling me you were given a choice between me and her, so technically i am just a choice, an option, and that the decision was 50/50 and could have went either way.

You said you have come to a conclusion with her that you guys shall not be friends anymore because she gets sad over us. I've been crying for the past week because of you and her and what have you done about it? Nothing. You guys talk on the phone for one night, she cried for one fucking night so then you decided to take action. I will never forgive you for this pain you brought upon me. You owe me. For everything i've done so far and all the tears i've cried so far. I will not allow myself to fall in love with you, there's no trust, there aint gon be us. I didnt make you choose because i knew it'd put you in a difficult position, but tell me, when was my feelings considered in your decision making process? Never. I'm merely just a girl that makes you happy in the present. Who knows who you'll pick over me in the future. I'm not going to shred another tear for someone that doesnt care. Because i've learnt my lesson, feelings only fuck you up.

I've given up the life of talking to all these guys, because i know you'd get jealous. Since i met you, i've lost all interest in putting effort into any other guy, i dont bother replying, i dont get excited when they try to chat me up, i lost the motivation to seek for love because i thought you'd be different. I lost myself in the process of chasing my old memories with Shahid and i alost lost myself in the process of trying to make you happy. But you just continuously hurt me, i dont need you to stop talking to 20 girls a day, just dont do it in front of me, dont make it obvious please, thats all i ask.