Hello, i've missed you. Now where do we begin? The part where he fondled with my heart rather than my breasts or the part where i still helplessly stick around while he suffocates me. Needless to say, i guarantee you i've had a heck of a time. Roller coaster? No, more like a continuing mt everest. Oh how i've missed expressing my bullshit here on a daily basis. First of, getting cheated on wasnt the end of it, i'm actually still traumatised by the way he reacted, an image forever embedded into me. For all i care, i should have left but i didnt. Surely enough by now you would have guessed it's because there's always this one aspect of them that draws you back, or you can weakly admit to fact you love them. I found out that throughout the first 6 months of our relationship (and yes that would include all your typical lovey dovey messages alongside the constant persuading/convincing/proving your love) only to found he had been flirtatiously messaging his ex. His excuse? haha oh dear oh dear oh dear, "thats just the way we talk and im used to it" and the typical one that he always throws at me "shes my first love, YOU need to understand". The fact he showed no remorse and continued to be 'elaborately romantic' with her after i caught him kissing her the first time, he 'vowed' to stop. I know the truth, i know theyve kept in contact, fair enough, i tried to live pass it, i tried to act like i dont care. Not happening. I'm having it my way and i've proposed three options. 1. You can continue your conversations while i gain access to your phone, 2. You stop talking to her entirely, 3. You let me be free.. I will not patiently wait for my fate, i will go and determine it, change it, fight it and most of all control it.