I think this is a new record. Ever since the incident, ive been emotionally unstable, i mean, who can be emotionally stable after that emotional roller coaster. So i'd have these mental break downs every now and then, by that i mean, cry and just be sad, i mean any little thing that reminds me of it immediately makes me snap, my knees will feel like jelly and i'd just lock myself in the bathroom and cry, often with a blade in my hand. I'm not quite sure what the specific reason to my crying is, all i know is i get overwhelmed by this huge wave of sadness, like i deserved it, so eventually, i dont even know how it happen, i just drag the blade across my skin and start drawing. I havent had these break downs for a week now, and i can tell you that there were so many times where i almost did, i almost did. Im angry now though, im angry at the fact that youre still not honest with me. I dont mind listening to how you still feel for her but your words make me angry. You told me youve spoken to her bestfriend about the situation, you would never speak to my friends just so you can get in touch with me, ever, but fair enough, im not angry yet. You told her bestfriend about my side of the story, nope, not angry yet. You told her bestfriend that i use my wrist as a canvas, youve crossd the line. I know shes been telling all her friends about the situation and talking shit about us, but i didnt cave in, i know i am tough and i am strong, her words will never get to me if you stood by me. Yet you let her know my biggest weakness, you let her know about my escape, youve betrayed me(not the first time youve done it though). I'm a changed person since what happened, and i can handle these situations more maturely, and when you said you think best option is to give each other space to recover, i agree, most definitely agree, but when you start using lines like "yeah cause you know, ive just gotten out of this" as though you just went through a break up, as though you were the victim, as though i was "suppose" to feel sympathetic towards you... I dont even know what to say. You're a pathetic piece of turd, and that's an insult to the turd.