Annie asked me, what if the things you said to me was from the heart? I'd punch myself in the face if it was. I keep having this glimpse of hope somewhere deep inside,hoping it was for real. I know though, its all a lie, the exact reason why i didnt kiss you. you lay there right next to me, one hand holding me tightly towards you, the other holding my hand and the you repeatedly whisper the words " i wont let you go this time ".. You got me at those words, they come back to haunt me every now and then. "this time" ? dont make me think that we can have a second try because i dont want it. Dont give me hope, dont lift me up and tear me down. Collin said i've made bad decisions, but really, have i? If i did, wouldnt i havent given you a chance to hurt me right on the spot. He said he loved you dearly as a brother but that he'd recommend for me to not go for assholes. He said he only knows that after that night you spent with me, you spent the next with another girl. Telling me something i already knew. lol