I thought i was over you, i thought i could act like nothing happened. I thought i could finally face up to you and be cool with it. I cant. Most nights before i sleep, i think about us, what we could have been or what we would have been. This shit keeps me up for hours. I was happy when i didnt see you in the class that i was meant to have with you. But the moment you walked in. My heart dropped. It literally skipped a beat. You caught my attention, i couldnt lay my eyes off you.

yeah i act tough and shit. but who am i kidding ? no matter how much of a dickhead you've turned into, im still in love with you. im still willing to stand here beside you and be there whenever you need someone. fuck i hate myself. i always wonder if i didnt fuck up, then where would be now ? I always end up with the same conclusion, you still would have left me for her. i still go on your facebook from time to time, seeing who you're talking to and stuff. but wtf, i get jealous at them girls you talk to, even when i dont have the rights to. i still reminisce. i always live on the good memories that we've had, thats why i cant let go. i even make myself look like a slut, thinking you would go for that type now LOOOOL! yeah wtf bro. i know.

I've confessed to you, but you've told me to fuck off. I dont know what more i can say. I just want to be there for you. Even if you're not who you use to be, you're still who i miss. but i still hope "us" could happen somewhere near future. i still believe in you and i. but what can i say ? I can only comfort myself by saying " if we're meant to be, we will happen eventually". Aint gona give up waiting for you.