This is seriously bugging me now. For fuck sakes get out of my mind Vanny. Everytime i pause and just sit down for some peaceful time, you fucking pop up. I know our time together was really short, but man, that shit was deeeep. I gave it my all. I really could see us lasting some time, and you know thinking back, if we lasted a bit longer, i would have lost something to you that i will never regret, honestly. Yeah i;d give anything just to give us another chance. But i know, its been three months already, you'd obviously got over me already. You probably got over me the night after we broke up. Because who are you? You're Vanny Bro. Known Flirt/Player. Wasnt expecting anything much. I know this sounds stupid, but would you like to play me ? I really wouldnt mind being played, only by you.

A few days ago i was reading out old chatlogs, got up to a section where you said you went through my inbox and saw my messages with ba hai. I know you were cut. Im sorry for doing that. But i've always remained faithful because no matter how many times they tell me they love me, i would never back knowing i only love you. i felt the world 'love' is a pretty strong word with many deep meanings and feelings attached to it. when i was with you, i dont deny to being a mad flirt trying to live up to your name, and level of play. but not once can i use the word love with anyone else. but you, you use it so casually, with your bestfriend. you were mine, i dont care if shes your bestfriend, no girl touches you, no girl stars at you, no girls flirt with you, but you told her you loved her. i dont know how you perceive love. you may think its just a bond you have with one another over a long period of time, thats your definition to bestfriend perhaps ? but which girls wants their bf;s love to be shared with another girl. living with the fact that your bf loves you and his bestfriend. really if you love her than why would you be loving me. i know it sounds so useless whinging about shit 3 months ago. i just cant. cant get the thought of us out of my head, cant get the thought of you out of my head and most definitely cant get you out of my heart. word of advice to you vanny : when you have a gf, dont go saying i love you to another girl, well at least not in front of her.

Im sorry for still loving you. I cant cope with the fact you've moved on. Everyday im trying to compete with you, checking your fb and seeing if you've got a gf yet, and everyday im trying to get my rep up so i can live up to your standard, yeah, the badass image, thats what im trying to get. im always trying to get back at you wanting to make you feel like it's your lost. im so immature, i cant even study properly now. just when i thought i could get back on track, here i am, being a fucking hk and failing in school. thats great. my life is ruined. and yet nothings changed, cos im still in fucking love with you.