Flashbacks ?

Remember when you first liked me ? You scared me bro haha. i was like the fuqq ? Out of all people you choose to like me ? But yeah i was retarded so i was going with the flow with you. Never wanted to get serious too because of your past. During this time of playing along with you, we had memories too. At cross country, where i ran my heart out to catch up to you, and we slowly and walked the course together. Remember how we were full scared of people seeing us at cross country ? We full waited til everyone ran past, and then you kissed me. That was our very first kiss.

That very afternoon i asked people for advice on how to reject you cos i sensed it was getting too serious. Next day, at lunch, you came to where i hang, we walked off together. When we got to behind D Block, you held my hand, first time in my life i felt safe and protected. but i still didnt like you. One night on msn, i've finally built up the courage to say that i didnt want to get in a relationship with you.

You were persistent, at first i found it annoying, but eventually i fell for it. You kept coming to my monday night games to watch me play. Remember that night where it was fulllll cold and you were only in a shirt and i kept offering you my jumper ? We had this full on fight about if you dont wear my jumper i will take it off and be cold with you or if i take off my jumper then you will sit at kerb and not walk. haha i bet you anna would have got annoyed at us ! :L Oh and there was once that i forgot to bring $10 for the game and i made you pay :P I still owe you $10 btw.

And when you would hug me in front of my friends or teachers, i would often feel embarrassed, i dont know, maybe because i dont want you to drag me down with your already shitty reputation with people. lol

Im not quite sure since when, when did i started falling for you. And remember going to watch scream 4, that was fail ! Full shit bricks that my mum was gonna find out so we dragged jenny along :) and then Fast Five, even though you watched it with friends already, you insisted on watching it again with me. That was sweet, but i wanted to slap you in the movies cos you kept telling me what was going to happen :L And youuuuu, you couldnt stop licking my face, farrrrrrr, how did the make up taste ?

Oh and remember how you told me you were going to ask me out with flowers and shit haha, cant believe i was that gullible, i dont know why, i was afraid, afraid you will like someone else before we have even started, so on one of your friday night games, i came to watch, after the game you came to me, hugged me, eww gross, you were all sweaty and shit hahahah loser. but yeah we sat down and i just asked you out. Sounds desperate yeah ? fuck that. :)

Didnt know why you liked me, we never talked, we hang at different areas, i wasnt pretty like the bball girls and all, so why ? Didnt really matter. Because what i knew is that i fell hard for you cuz. Remember when you told me that i was the only one who was calling you a cunt, i felt the sadness within you, i dont know why but i felt you were pretty upset. and remember when you said you wanted a dog tag ? i've always wanted to get you one but theres no point in getting you one now right ?

I dont know why im writing about the past. But every little thing you've said to me is stuck in my head and the flashbacks are on replay.

People can laugh all they want at my video, but its you, when you laugh, it hurts. its like you know i was hurt deeply by you but you are happy that it is still haunting me. Well congrats on that ? And all the things we did at your place and all the things you told me at your place, are just solely for satisfaction right ? No feelings involved right ? I just cant, i just cant but the same love into any other relationship with any other guys. So yeah,


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Fuck you.