Contradicting myself. Oh well.

I've made my wise choice, ive chosen to hide my feelings for once and for all. I will be there as your friend, just friend, stand by you. I told you i've lost all my feelings for you and that i just want to be friend, honest truth is, i cant handle it and i dont want to break down in front of you anymore. I will take care of myself no matter how much it hurts because i know this can help you and possibly help me, i cant be your counselor for your relationship problems and be your lover. I just cant hide the fact i am utterly shattered by the fact you are madly in love with her. I hope these harsh words tonight will make you realise youre better than all this, forgive me for how bad im going to make you feel, forgive me for hurting you so much in one night, forgive me for i just want you to know you need to do this on your own.