I discover a new talent in me, perhaps a useless one though. I'm really good at creating/writing really tragic and/or really romantic scenarios or stories. I can make a really good one up on the spot. But i think i figured out why. Growing up in a broken family, i was always alone, i never really had anybody, no friends, no family, i was at home all by myself watching movies or dramas all day. I'm not sure if this could be the cause of my unrealistic expectations of love. I always wished for something tragic happening to me, i wish my life was worst so then out comes my prince charming saving me from all this. But you, you were different, you made me want to switch roles. I wanted to save you from all your sufferings. I wanted to provide you will love and care that you lack from childhood, be the friend that you can always count on regardless because friends have always come and gone for you, i wanted to be that brother/sister that would look out for you and stand up for you, i wanted to be girlfriend who provided you with everything you ever wanted, protecting you, making you feel like you belong and giving you a part of me that i'm not willing to share with anyone else, open up to you and let you open up to me. thats how it was suppose to turn out, but somewhere along the process, i fucked up. i fucked up good. i turned my world inside out. i adapt to your way of living, i cant help but listen to your genre of music, i cant help but notice nice cars and pointing out their model(esp with evos), i cant help notice how people wear their suits or if its incorrectly worn, hey remember tomorrowland 2014? we had a deal, we would go together, i dont even like those things, but after 5 months, i cant even explain it myself, i like it, im excited for it, that genre of music is uplifting and it is my escape. But i wish, i really wish i can just go back to being myself. I lost myself in the process of making you happy, i absolutely forgot..... that i was special too.