It's always like this.

why does the ones i like never get approval from my circle of friends. I get looked down upon for almost all my past relationships. Its not like i choose who i have feelings for. I know they're not that great, i know its wrong, but in that very moment, i was blinded by everything. All i could see was them. Annie really didnt like vanny, neither did she liked shahid and now she's saying no to jacky. I know she would probably know whats best for me but i dont know if im willing to give my happiness up although i know all thats gonna end up with is sadness. So there's one thing that i dont know how to express. I still value the ring he gave me, to him maybe it wasnt much, to me, it was probably my everything. I still wear the ring everywhere and i'd get really scared of losing it. I dont know if its because i havent been able to let it go, or i just want to keep it there as a reminder. Maybe i just still have him in my heart, but i feel like thats unfair, unfair for jacky. Jacky tells me he is afraid that i will hurt him, i keep assuring him its going to be okay, truth is, im scared i'll hurt him too. Honestly, i just need someone to hold me, to protect me, to show me they love me. I guess its time to put down the ring.. put down the past, and put him down.