Sentimenal

Great events or things that happened in our life are times we'd like treasure, this is why we take photos, to fossilise that very moment that may not happen again. Photographs are taken to document history, to document great times and for some, it is simply to remind them of how it use to felt. I've always thought i put in 110% effort with every relationship after paul and andrew, because i feel the need to make up for how bad of a person i was. But to be quite honest, with him, i really thought it was real, i actually saved the little things for future purposes, i really thought 'we' could happen. I dont know if i'm the only one, but i collect the tickets to the movies, amusement parks, zoo, train, the gifts wrapping or simply just pictures we've drawn. But since it's over, we should all know that the best thing to do is put everything in a box and put it aside, looking at it will only bring sadness upon ourselves. It took me a while to have the courage to even go near the box, but hey, i guess its getting better? I opened up the box, not gonna lie, yes it kinda hurt but i got through it. It was actually quite fun to go through old things and think to myself how much of an idiot we are. Best advice to give to those who are in the same situation with the whole box thing, ONLY open it when you think you are ready because trust me, hell, it's gonna hit you like a tsunami mate.

So we've got admission tickets, movie tickets, zoo map, letters that i wrote after the break up, the dvd he left here, the ring he bought, the swarovski bracelet, the mini sword, the ds games, the scent of 'Joop', the drawings of mermairds, the kool aid, etc.

Proud of myself, next step, destroying all of it. But that will take some time. I havent built up the courage to do that yet.