Why look back?

This is a funny mixed emotion. I was really frustrated with myself today, no quite sure why but i just was. I was thinking about starting new with someone i legitimately like but im also really afraid to go for it, im really scared about how it'll turn out. Like i dont want to go through the same kind of thing that happened with you. Thing is i think thats why i got really agitated, the fact that i still let you control my life. You're a shadow that constantly haunts me, you block my paths to many greater opportunities and i hate you, i hate you a lot for that. fuck you.