Cause you are the piece of me,

I wish I didn't need,

Chasing relentlessly,

Still fight and I don't know why.

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy

If our love's insanity why are you my clarity

I know i havent been all that happy, to be honest, i havent been happy at all. But this is the first time i drank at a party and didnt become emotional. I knew that if i got really drunk, i'd either be sad and crying over something stupid (you), or i'd forget about everything and just party hard, but only to find myself waking up to a harsh reality. So no. I'd rather have self control and contain my emotions. For the first time, i kept everything inside me. A lot of people made jokes about you and i's past relationship, as well as people asking how i'm doing with you. Answer was simple, "we're not together". We're only human, of course from time to time at the party i was feeling sad and wished you were here when i saw the couples, especially when i saw Aderson, it brought back a lot of memories. But it's ok, it's alright, i mean, i finally gain control over my emotions. Like Anna says, i need to remember i deserve someone who's going to fight for me and treat me right, and that i will definitely find someone better, also, always remember that i am special too. Regardless of how bad my past has been, how much ive given, it doesnt matter, it's in the past. I will do things your way, just throw away your past like you did with your family, and your exs. I'm just some girl you use to date, but hey, vice versa, you're just the guy that i once loved with all my heart.