I can't say i'm such a worthy and good person just cause i can sacrifice my needs, put others before me and that i can forgive those who have done me wrong. Because im simply not a good person. I do things because i have to, not because i want to. I had accept that vanny loved his bestfriend as well as me at the same time, i had to accept andrew liked someone else while with me, i have to accept the fact _ _ _ _ _ was never going to like me because he liked my good friend, i had to accept the fact that i was in love with my bestfriend but he didnt feel the same way and then had to try to hook them up, i have to accept the fact that the one that i thought i could spend the rest of my life with, was simply just someone who gave me the best memories and promises, yet left me for good. Im happy to see all of them doing so good right now though, but then there's me, i ended up walking this path on my own again. Is it really that hard ? Or was i just destined to be a lone walker. I'm not quite sure either. One thing i'm sure of is that i've given too much trust to too many people who didnt earn it, and this is what i deserve. I guess you can say it' s a good thing i didn't go all emo about it, fuck that, trying my hardest to make myself the happiest person alive. I dont mind being alone, it's just that sometimes when i see others so happy with someone else, just sometimes, i miss having someone there, or simply, i miss you.