this is the first time i need to take this long to think about what to write. this was blank for a good half an hour. 2013 is not my year. where do i begin? i have no idea. but im really sick and tired of losing the ones i care about. one by one they leave me. it's not even by choice, its like its mandatory for them to leave. so first of, lets just say i lost this person that i really loved. i gave him all that i can, tried my hardest to show that i care, gave him the best of everything, but i was tossed away. I still havent managed to get over it. Right after losing him, i lost one of my pets who was like a close friend to me, my house suddenly became quiet and empty. It was a rough time getting through all that, but once its finally getting a little better because i became more dependent on my bestfriend as i have no idea what to do with my spare time. But nah brah, me and my bestfriends family has some stupid ass argument, concluded with a confession of her thoughts and feelings. bravo. i'm not going to comment on that, but generally speaking of it, it's kind of not the way it should be or used to be, some things are changed. Now here i am again, without them three, back to 8 years ago, i got my way of life back, but where did my innocence and happiness go? It left with all three. I wonder what else is life going to throw at me? I want to just give up on life now, i lost all motivation whatsoever, this is so fucking stupid, who and what am i living for, i dont even know where i will go in life. no goals, no target, no anything. ffs http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=9NjKgV65fpo