Looking Back

Looking back at my photos, i've came across these photos where it was obvious i have lost weight. That wasnt the only thing visible on my face, my expressions seem dull and a sense of energy was lacking. Well from that, i know when the photos were taken. It was after my second heartbreak, i refused to eat, i thought i was not good enough, i threw up after every meal, i wanted to be pretty for him. To think back, ive actually done a whole heap of stupid things. I turn towards self harm for both occasions, what was i thinking? I have no idea but i know if there was a lesson given, there was a lesson learnt. Dont give your trust to everyone that comes into your life, dont get attached to everyone that shows a little bit of attention, don't rely on others for your own happiness. Its easier said than done because sometimes you're just tired of being your own hero, you're tired of picking yourself up, you just want to give up, let everything go, let your life fall apart because you're slowly losing the strength to hold it together. Knight in shining armour, come, come sweep me off my feet.