Unclear.

I think i've come to a point where i dont really know what the fuck is going on with my life anymore, im basically sad every fucking second of my life. I know why im sad, but i cant seem get myself out of this cycle of sadness. Lately i've been having dreams about Vanny, wtf is going on man, wrong person? It's not weird dreams, it's just dreams about the time i use to be with him. I dont know what i want? I'm willing to give love many other shots but every now and then i second guess myself, i question myself whether it'd be fair to be with someone when i have someone else in my heart, i'm not saying i wont love them, i'm just saying they'll need to understand that there are things that cant be undone, there are things that i cant unlove, and there are things that i cant forget. Please, bear with my selfishness, bear with my past, bear with my flaws because i'm going to make sure i'll love you with everything i've got.